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getting caught up writing down my dreams so I don't forget...

the other night, it was a basketball game. the opposing team's coach was the referee. He made some real unfair calls and when we were going into the 1/2 time it was 51 us, 21 them. when we got to the next break in my dream we had 24 and they had 34 and their coach had been rigging the score. So I got pissed at him and he was all "what are you gonna do about it" with an attitude. So I said, "Look, I have a very small 'bad list' but believe me, you don't want to be on it". He pushed his luck too far and so I totally trashed everything even remotely related to him. And then I woke up and I was still pretty angry about it.

The next night I dreamed I was walking through walls (again) and some more silly stuff like that. Nothing really grounded in reality. Oh and I dreamed that I started loosing my teeth. Like 3 popped out and then they all just started coming out. It was actually quite freakish. Isn't it funny how your fears can play at you?

Last night I had a weird dream. I was looking for something but I couldn't remember what. As I woke, shaking off the shreds of the dream, I decided to look for whatever it was figuring that it must be in my room. So, I dedicated the next 5-10 minutes of grogginess to look for it. I kind of got the feeling that I was looking for something that I really didn't want to find.

Dread, Loss, Hopelessness - those are the feelings that I woke with. Like being in the ocean and seeing the next wave about to crash over you, or climbing an impossibly large mountain jus to see more ahead. Like surviving a storm just to see clouds gathering on the horizon.

(for those of you who believe in good and evil) - Do you think the only way to get rid of evil is to become the greater evil? Is it murder to kill a murderer or thievery to steal from a thief? They say, "An eye for an eye will leave us all blind." but what is this world coming to?

Hey, the Daredevil soundtrack is pretty hot. I hadn't heard of the band "Evanescence" before this. They're kinda cool. The sound track also has Fuel, Saliva, Seether, Nickelback, Drowning Pool /w Rob Zombie, Chevelle, Finger 11 and Other various unmentionables ;p It's probably not worth $20 but if you can get if on sale (mine was $13) then go ahead and give it a go.

On a sidenote: If not doing bad is the same as doing a little good, then I'm about to receive a big Karma paycheck. I've behaved quite well thankyouverymuch. And of course, now i'm bored which inevitably leads to doing something extremely stupid. I'm starting to have issues with midget space clowns again. /walks off looking for his moldy-toxic-burrito-launcher-from-hell...